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You may all be wondering, what the hell is going on with my journal.

Fact of the matter is, my trust is deeply diminished by certain people's behavior. I will not be a tool, I will not pick sides, I will NOT be a pawn.

What you all don't seem to realise, is that if you try to make me choose, I will tell you what I think. Up till now, I have said nothing. I have held my tongue, and tried to please everyone, because I will go to almost any lengths to avoid conflict.

Here is my warning: Push the fucking envelope, force my hand, and see. See how I will react, because quite honestly - hell hath no fury.

I am impressed with no-one. And to quote Raven, one of the few people I always trust: The backstabbing and bitching is consuming my life.

So. This is what it boils down to. I am not a toy, I am not a child, I am not easy to manipulate. I cannot be bought. I will not do what you want. I cannot be outplayed. I am complex, and moral, and ethical, and intelligent, and manipulative, and ruthless, and cold, and callous and cruel. I don't act like any of those all the time, but here is fair warning. If you continue to push me, I will snap and I will NOT care. Consider yourselves warned.

The only person I know who reads my journal, who will worry about this, is morgan303. This has nothing to do with you. You're one of the small points of solace I get in my life, along with ravenquoth.

My journal's privacy settings will be reinstated when I feel comfortable. Reading my thoughts is a privilege, not a right. I will not have these things used against me.